Sunday, March 15, 2009

A Frown....

I don't know why few people derive pleasure by hurting others . Why don't they understand others feelings and emotions?. Why do the play this cameo role in this business of hurting people?. Why do they fail to understand that fellow human beings are just like them and why to treat them as strangers?. Sibling rivalry may sound strange and new to you, but its existent in few families.I hate some one who calls me as a sibling. I wish I could live alone without any siblings to hurt me.I hate these people who make me angry and make me feel lonely. I feel like being thrown on a pit consisting of thorns. I feel isolated and solitary. There is no one aside me to support me and pat on my back to compliment me.People should try to simmer off the problems in a family ,but why are they doing everything against me. Don't they have any sort of work ?. If one tries to analyze their problem ,there are several things which serve as a backlog for them. I don't know why every word I speak turns out something against me.

Am I the source of all the problems that I face. I am just a larvae trying to metamorphise . I just want people to encourage and support me and not discourage me. I am left hurt and depressed. I don't want to see those 3 months of pain and sufferings. If I get to see that again probably I won't be here .For those were the days which I suffered the most.Today when I look back,my eyes shed tears.I feel like walking on broken peices of glasses. Walking on a road and of sudden I visualize a car throwing me off the road.My eyes are moist with tears when I am typing this.Take me to a place where I am surrounded by good people. For these are the people who pat on my back and compliment for all the good works I've done unlike others who just laugh at my failure.

Life is an enigma and thats what I feel at this point of time.At good times of utmost happiness ,they just act like your closed one.In this game of life ,I've met many such people . I hate some one who has been with me since 16 years. I don't know why I am being targetted for the wrong reasons.I am sorry for this frown post.I am hurt, and probably this hurt would be associated with me forever.I am not waiting for this wound to heal as I reckon these wound won 't heal.I have these group of virtual mates to support me . In you I see all my well wishers and good friends.But,I'm afraid that I won't be able to see you guys again.I am sorry for that.Everything depends on time.I pray that everything will be fine .I regret that I don't have any one in real world to support me and stand aside me.They wait for opportunities so that one day they would push me in the deepest pit.I don't want to upset my readers. I don't want to transfer my frown to my readers for since childhood I am known as "the frown child".I'm surrounded by failures all around me.I am sad and hurt.I am sorry for this post.I hate every one who provoked me to write this post.I am crying. Please stand aside me to wipe out my tears and support me.

16 comments:

  1. will a hug help?

    i am sure writing made you feel better.. take care Stibu..this too shall pass..
    naan iruken, here for ya!

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  2. Welcome to my life mate. Cant say much but theres a song by switchfoot named "dare you to move" that can be of some solace to you now ... May be you have heard it or may be not ...but theres a life changing line in that song which always keeps me going through the darkest of turbulent times

    "May be redemption has stories to tell,
    May be forgiveness is right where you fell,
    Where you gona run to escape from yourself,
    Salvation is here"

    I have been through war , prison , drug rehab , never ending series of failures and witnessed the most sickest of human behavior on this planet and trust me on this embrace every pain and suffering cuz they are real forces the shapes your truest self and gets you in touch with the most noblest part inside you that you are usually unaware of during the normal circumstances.

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  3. ohhhhh.......srry to hear dat bro...listen, there may b sme virtual frnds to help u out, to comfort u, but u knw dat i exist for real,so u can confide in me.....juz tell me d problem & d problematic pple around.......i'll screw them up, if you want.....

    & u fool,u are nt d source of all the problems that u face, welcum aboard life!!!!!!

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  4. Hey what's wrong man? You write "I'm surrounded by failures all around me".. just re-consider it.. is it really true? You see so many people standing by you (through comments).. Let me tell you no one in this world likes a failure, but you have so many readers, friends.. That shows you are not a failure.. You are just passing through a bad time.. it will pass..

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  5. Hey !! No point in running away from everything! You are hurt.. gather yourself.. Life do sucks smtimes.. if you think you are not wrong then fight it out.. fight away that feeling.. don pull yourself further down.. it happens stephen.. ! Jus like good times passes by, bad times will also pass by.. dont make it stay in your life by holding it unintentionally.. let it go.. take care !!

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  6. Hey cheer up...these times will passby..give time to your real love..it hurts most because..u really love them..probably.. my words were hurting someone I deeply love..A poem I remember having read..recently
    Pain is a gap between two moments of happiness. Happiness is an interval between two moments of pain..

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  7. Here you have got one to be with you!
    I agree with many things on your posts...and yes,saddists are all around...you don't even need to look!

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  8. awww cheer up buddy... don't let those silly ppl get you down :)

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  9. whats the matter? Please cheer up...
    Everything will be alright in a few days time:)
    best wishes stephen

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  10. *HUGS*

    Ste...whatever happens...happens for the best! Take my word...your failures, these people talking...all these are something that you'll write in your success story in future!

    I'm there for you if at any time you need me!

    Cheers

    God Bless You...

    *PEACE*

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  11. abbe kya dusro ke wajah se tension letaa hain ......

    Chill da ...from a frown.. be a li'l more happy.... :)

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  12. steph, i'll help u turn that frown upside down..! m there for ya bro! :)

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  13. haha.. you need a drink boy.. or you should see a wonderful movie "ek chotteee see love story".. you will realise that our life is lot better than wasting time seeing the movie...

    or try writing your mobile number in the college loo with a name " meena" next to it.. you will get lots of calls...

    i wanted to give my shoulder for you to cry.. but already dislocated my shoulder more than once.. so dint wanna take another chance..

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  14. Abbey Ste, life has good things and life has bad things... Good things make you feel the world is a good place and bad things somehow turn the same world upside down... You've vented your feelings na... you'll feel better trust me! And if ders something you feel we can do for you, you know all you have to do is name it... :)

    Now cheer up... frowning needs 14 muscles to do work... smile hardly needs one or two... so smile :) :) :) :) :) :)

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  15. hey cheer up..n chunk all those ppl...:|...
    Do take care :)

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  16. thanks a lot every one....feeling better nw...:)

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