Tuesday, October 21, 2014

An Open letter to the Ex Boyfriend!

Taken from Here

Dear Ex,

I hope you must be fine and dandy!  Of course you must be!  Only if I could wish, then all your happiness may get ruined for once. I never knew what tears were until you made me cry.

How do I tell you how much I loved you? I did everything that you wanted, ordered and demanded. It’s sad to know that I had acquiesced to all your never ending demands. I never been a submissive type but for you I changed myself. I think that was the biggest flub that I ever committed. When you befriended me, you were so sweet; you were such a sweet talker, a charmer to be precise. Maybe I failed to read your real face. You had been showing me dreams all these days and like a fool I'd been living in that fantasy tale of yours. Your lies have hurt me! I have always mentioned you that I hate liars but you never listened to me. All you could do is to lie on my face and constantly hurt me. Perhaps you are good at hurting women! I know that! Right now, I'm broken into shards! I don't have energy left within me and more than that my tears glands have dried! I have turned ashen and fragile!

Its often said that relationships build on lies don't last long. But for you I adjusted myself just because my feelings for you were true! But you could never reciprocate the same. I have got the prize for trusting you blindly. Trust is a word too strong, after you betrayed my trust, I stopped trusting people. I changed my definition and opinion about love only after meeting you, but now I regret meeting you. All these years I had been dreaming and thinking about only you but it’s sad that you had many other priorities. Everyone who falls in love often tastes hurt at some point of time but in my case I never thought that I would get to taste it early. Such is my plight! All those upon whom I bestowed true love and showered too much care only forsaked me. It’s completely fine! You have taken me for granted - my words, my love, my care, my time, everything! Tears well in my eyes as I type this letter just to know that I'd fallen for a wrong man. When you talk about other girls, it just turns me off. Do I really deserve all these shit? I have made up my mind.  Never forget this day, you son of a bitch! You will have to answer me. I bloody did everything you said. I surrendered my body and soul both to you! I gave you all the happiness in your life, is it unfair on my part to expect the same from you? I always had time for you. I remembered you every single moment. You have made me weak! I'm turning feeble! It seems the sky is falling down on me to intensify my hurt but I will never give up. I will live my life once again. Bygone days are bygone! Never ever I'm going to talk to you. I have erased this chapter of love from my book. Days from now on will be filled with happiness. I just hope you realize your mistakes. I just request you to stop hurting girls like me. It’s wrong to hurt people who truly love you.

My heart is already mauled and your hurt has only aggravated the pain and left behind a deep scar that constantly reminds me of the hurt caused by you. It’s strange that this heart which is enclosed with arteries and veins also has feelings and emotions. But sadly this beating monster of mine is not used to getting hurt but since that now it has got hurt, the damage has already been done. You know I have been spending sleepless nights and I have drenched my bed with tears. How easy it is for you to play with the feelings of a girl. Right now I feel ashamed of myself for falling for someone like you who is just a liar and a disloyal bastard. Good bye for the last time.I shall recant my feelings for you from this moment itself. Right now I feel jettisoned. I remember it was the month of August when I met you for the first time. Did I know about the true face of yours I would have refrained meeting and talking to you. Now I ask myself why I even met you. Today, I'm doing what my heart ordered me to do!

You surely know how to impress and flatter a girl. You too applied the same trick on me. Right now I'm going to work on my dreams, ambitions and my career. You controlled me both mentally and physically and that too for a long time. I have now lost the patience. You could have simply told me if you don't like me instead of lying and passing obsequious comments on me. Don't you know every time I feel insecure when you talk about the other girls with me? I should have realized it that moment itself. I’d been trying my best to save this relationship and now it’s all over. I valued you and our bond very much but you constantly disappointed me every day and now you deserve this treatment. I'm now a free bird and I am going to color my dreams. I would try to forget you and those sour moments spend with you. I wish I could erase all the moments spend with you. Never come back to me with all those lies and fake apologies like every time you do. I no longer need your apologies for you have lost all the rights to apologize. I wish you all the luck to you. I’m happy to have got rid of this broken bond.

Your Ex, 

PS - This story is  inspired from a dear friend of mine!  I dedicate to all the girls who have been hurt by their boyfriend! Be Strong, move on! Life never stops here! 

Thursday, November 12, 2009

171. Loved & Lost - 2 (end part)

This is a real Story!!!

I curiously clicked on the mail to see what was written.
"Isha Gill wants to be your friend on FaceBook," the mail read.Without any delay I logged on to my facebook account and accepted her friend request.We exchanged our numbers and we met at the same pub where we used to party few years ago
"Hi Ronnie," she greeted me.
Isha was still the same beautiful girl with those seraphic smile. She was smart and she seemed to have matured.The way she spoke and behaved was somewhat unusual and strange.
"Hey Isha! after a long time girl," I replied.
"Where is Aneesh?," I anxiously asked her.
"Hmm! we broke up dude," she said with a sad face.
"What?When it happened?" I was perplexed.
"It happened the same daywhen you guys fought.You must be knowing that I took your side," She said with a straight face.

"Yes,I do remember," I said.
"He somewhat felt bad and spoke malicious words about both of us," she cried.
"He linked both of us and this was why we broke up," She said.

"Its 2 years now since I last met him," she added.
"Oh! I'm really sorry," I said.
"You don't need to be," she said.
"May be he didn't deserve me," she winked.

We spoke for hours and I'd my friend back.I wished to hold her tight and never let her go away from me.She was doing her Engineering from a famous Engineering College in Mumbai.We started hanging out together.We used to go for movies just like normal couples. We used to roam across Bandstand and Marine Drive.We would go everywhere.Later on she introduced me to her parents.Two years passed and we become best friends.It was only then I realized that it was the time for me to confess my love for her.

"Isha," I said.
"I think I am in love with you," my voice started trembling.
We remained silent for a while.
"Will you give me some time to think," she paused.
After that we never met frequently. The last time I met her was at the Mumbai Airport.She was leaving for US to pursue her MS from the Univ of Illianois.Months passed and again I started missing her.I used to call her most of the time.Few weeks hence I tried calling her.
But she refused to pick up the phone. I constantly tried dialling her number.
"Hey Isha babe..," I greeted her.
"I'm still waiting for your reply," I added.
"Ronnie, I'm busy at the moment ,will call you later," she said and cut the phone.
I failed to understand the reason why she was trying to ignore me.Later on when I logged onto my facebook ,I got the biggest shock of my life.

"Isha Gill is in a relationship with Sandeep Arvindan," her facebook status read.

I could see photos of Isha kissing a guy.I was shattered and broken as soon as I saw those photos.I felt dejected and depressed. I soon realized that she had ruined my life.I didn't want to see her again in my life and at the same time my phone rang.
"Isha sweetheart calling..."My cellphone rang.
I switched off my phone and left the place. I took french leave from my office and left for Amritsar.I left Mumbai once and forever.

Monday, November 09, 2009

169. Loved & Lost - 1

This is a real Story!!

Somethings in life often teaches you a great lesson.My Life has been a wonderful teacher for me.It has disappointed me at times.Most of these disappointments has often lead to an awkard predicament. I envy those people who are in love. I'm jealous of them.Should I tell you the story of my nascent love. After loving someone for three years I realized that it wasn't love.It was infatuation,an illusion or rather a one sided stupidity.My futile love has debilitated me.
The name 'Isha' reminds me of my junior college days.She was my best friends' girlfriend.We were a gang of spoiled brats who aimed at nothing.Our life was goal less as we were deeply inspired by parties and western culture.During one of those wild night parties,I met this gorgeous young lady of 17 who was introduced to me as "Isha Gill" who was my best friend Aneesh's girlfriend.

"Ronnie meet Isha," Aneesh said.
"Hey young lady looking gorgeous ehh!," I said to her.
"By the way this is Ronnie Matharu," I added.
"Hello Ronnie,pleased to meet you," she said to me.
"Dude, don't hit on her or ogle at her.She is mine," Aneesh winked at me.
"I won't," I smiled back.

It was the night we met for the first time.Since then we always used to be together.We used to roam around together and party together.'ENIGMA' used to be our clubbing headquarter.Saturday night always used to be fun during those teen days.Those were the days when I saw my best friend kissing his girlfriend voraciously.Sometimes he used to behave as if she was the only beautiful girl left on earth.

Days passed and I got to know more about Isha.Now we became good friends.It was our 12th Std exams and after that we seldom used to meet.It wasn't a graceful farewell as we quit our junior college.I had a small tiff with my best friend.Since then he stopped talking to me. I'd to leave for my home after my 12th.Momma was worried for me and she wanted to meet me.But if I'd to leave Mumbai then I would've to leave Isha forever.I failed to recognize that I started liking my best friends girlfriend.I convinced Momma that I won't be going back to Amritsar. Sooner I got admitted to a 'not so' famous Engineering college in Mumbai.By then I'd lost my cell phone and hence I lost everything including Isha's contact details.I started missing her badly.I used to go to 'ENIGMA' and search for the pretty girl.But everytime disappointment awaited me.I could not find her anywhere.I didn't knew if my feelings for her could be justified.

I started loving her may be it was just an infatuation.My love for her was ineffable.Since school days I've been known as a womanizer and a flirt,but now I could feel a drastic change in my behavior and attitude.The last time I saw Isha was the day when I fought with Aneesh.She tried her best to stop us from fighting but she was helpless.Months passed and even years ,but I could not find her.I didn't want to meet Aneesh once again in my life.So I couldn't knock him for help as he loved Isha.One day as I was checking my email I got a new email message.I curiously clicked on the mail to see what was written.