Sunday, August 28, 2016

From the Diary of a 21 year Old!

First , Read   "From the Diary of a 16 year old!" before reading this post.

Dear God, 

I remember I wrote a letter to you in 2011 addressing my sorry state. It was a horrendous experience and feelings that  bring tears into my eyes. I was 16 then and Doctors seldom knew anything about this rarely found disease for it also had a poor prognosis. But you made me never lose my faith in you. I had turned bland at my own sufferings. You are the supreme power that binds everyone and your sole job is to keep your children happy. Several times, I used to be angry because you gave no heed to my prayers.I'm 21 now and life is horrendous even now. I have grown stronger and stronger day by day. I am not confined to a wheelchair now and my limbs have grown stronger. I no longer hear the babel of voices behind me. But I was used to all this. Life has veered out drastically in the last 5 years.

I no longer feel bad looking at those who studied with me. Some of them are doing their Engineering, while some have excelled in different fields. I am happy with myself because I'm doing what I am good at. Creativity is something that  gives me happiness. It instils a ray of hope in me. Life is harsh but now I realise that it is not that harsh like I had expected it. Everyone has an untold story that no one wants to share or narrate to anyone. That story is the secret that beholds them. My parents tell me that you write a story in everyone's life and that story is how your life shapes up eventually. So I got to be happy with whatever you have given me. Sometimes melancholia haunts me and grips me terribly but I learned that it would be more miserable to curse my own plight. 

The United States and the European Union are spending too much money on the research for the Pomple Disease and I am sure someday the cure will be available for this. I still see myself as a once whimsical kid put to test. But I feel I have been successfully passing all those tests. I still hate it when  I see a large ensemble of people bewailing at my sorrowful condition. But I'm special. I've grown more hopeful for I have started to live the normal life. My hope for existence once seemed fizzled but I am happy I don't feel such.  My Cervix still hurts me but I don't care at all. I have learned to live with the pain.I have  a wonderful doctor whom I think to be your best angel whom you have sent to advise and help me. I no longer feel jinxed. But I still ask you the same question that you asked me 5 years back - Will you efface all my sorrows and get me back to normal like how I used to be 10 years back? I remember writing a poem expressing my state of mind.

"I jostled against the tide of time,
nothing is left in the journey of life.

things were thought differently,
never meant to go in such hurry.

I bleed to death with the appalling pain,
fighting to the last for what I have not gained.

Is this what is stored in my destiny,
half way through my life's journey.

expected so many avenues on the way,
but ended up like a seamless castaway"

I am glad I no longer feel the same. Even now I'm longing for the day when I will smile without any fear. I am quite hopeful that that day isn't far. You are my only hope, You are my messiah, You are my Supreme Power, You are my everything. I am happy to have an amazing family who has always stood by my side during my difficult times. These words are not random ramblings but my current state of mind. This disease has prevented me  but it won't defeat me from doing what I dreamt of! My mother always used to say that When God closes all door from my life, he keeps an invisible door for you that he would reveal at some point in time. I am still in pursuit of that insivible door. I am quite sure you will resolve all the problems in my life. I have surrendered myself to you. I will always obey your words and despite all the sufferings, I trust you. I have never given up on you. I promise I have never been bad to my family.  Bree has grown up to be a beautiful girl and is brimming with mighty confidence day by day. Lots of Hugs, Love and Kisses to you, O dear God!


‘This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.’

PS  - I planned to write this post many years back but I had completely forgotten about this. This holds a special place in my heart. I am glad that I was able to finish this unfinished story that has been sleeping in my drafts for ages :) 
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Thursday, June 11, 2015

Frankly Speaking with God!

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The other night I was thinking about various things that bothered me at that moment that included things like sorrow, wars, extremist activities, natural calamities and so on. I was wondering if God  popped in front of me what all questions I could throw  at him! But yes he did!

"Hey God!" 

"Hello Son!" 

"I was just thinking about you and for a moment I think I am hallucinating."

"No not at all. I am here to answer your questions." 

"Yes, I have too many questions to ask you and I wish you had answers for that."

"I am all ears ,dear."

"Here is my first question for you. Why do you test people who love you?" 

"First of all let me tell you that I don't test people who love me or don't love me. This world is my creation and everyone who is born in this planet belongs to my family. You all are my children, son! How can a father test his children? Can he?"

"No God! A father doesn't tests his children! You are right!" 

"Yes see, you too agree with me! " God said  with a smile.

"I don't test them. I just give them a dose of difficulty. Its an ingredient for life.   Life should be equally composed! It should be like a perfect song. I subject them to difficult situations so that my children become strong and gain more strength to address such situations. Its all about sustainability. I love you all! Trust me! How can I detest you? "

I calmly looked at him and smiled. 

"Even if I test them. I want them to pass the test with flying colors." He winked at me to which I smiled.

"My second question for you. It's generally said that people only remember you when they deep drowned in extreme sorrow. What do you feel about it?"

"Yes. I do feel bad. As I said before, we all belong to one big family. If you remember me in your  bad time and days of struggle and hardships, you should also remember me in your days of happiness. Shouldn't I deserve to be a part of your happiness too? Don't I need my share of happiness in your life? I do need."

I looked at him and smiled. 

"You are kind!" 

"Just like you are!" He said and continued, "I would like to  answer your next question."

"My next question for you is - some people generally believe that you bring sorrow to their life and you betray them? Whats your take on this?"

"Well. Let me ask them why I do that. If I push them in a dark room full of sorrow and melancholy I do that wish some purpose. There is no hidden agenda on it. But they should also know that if  I give them pain, I give them happiness too! They are deep immersed in sorrow and fail to realize that I have constructed a door on the other wall. But they are only concerned about their sorrow that blindfolds them. And their problems seem huge to them that they fail to see the other door. I want them to find a solution. And that solution lies on the other side of the room. If they open the door, there they will see the bright light, the happiness! In fact happiness that will bring back the lost  joy back to their life and shoo away all the melancholy. I love my children."

"And some say that there is no God. Whats your view on that?

"Then who am I?" He winked at me. 

"I need to rush now. I got to listen to few prayers tonight. I will get back to you soon. It was nice talking to you, Son!"

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Sunday, August 10, 2014

Remembering God!

 I was sitting besides the window as some thoughts struck me hard. Aren't we all turning selfish?  We knock doors only when we need something. Yes, it reflects from our actions. Its a fact that in this fast moving world where the cost of living has been increasing, we all have turned money minded. Remember those days when we were young and we all had time to visit  temples, churches, mosques etc. We had time to remember the holy almighty. Gradually we all turned selfish and eventually we started knocking his door only when we needed something from him. Holy father isn't the one who should be remembered during our bad days. A true father doesn't betrays his children. He will stand by you during your good times as well as your bad days.

I am one of the culprit too. But today I contemplated for a while. When I was in Noida for my work assignments, I  never visited church for I never knew where it was. After moving  back to Mumbai, I turned lazy. I only knocked his door during my worst days or  whenever I needed something from him. May be when I was attending an important job interview or I was deep drowned in depression. When I recall the disastrous days of  my past where I suffered from a dreadful disease, I knew I would be completely cured someday and it was this almighty lord who saved me. He is a true saviour but its just that we don't remember him every time. Know that he is omnipresent and watching every single action of yours! I know he will forgive his children but all that he wants is to be remembered.  Would you not be offended if  you offer some help to someone during their worst days and when the  bad days subside and the person even refuses to talk to you. Wouldn't that be the worst thing to do? Of course you would feel bad. Right? Just ponder for a minute and talk to yourself. Confine yourself to a room and switch off the lights. Close your eyes and think for yourself. What you are doing is right or wrong? You got no right to  be a selfish , opportunist who doesn't cares for anyone. That's how life is turning out to be for many of us. Atheists and Agnostics have different opinions! But as firm believer of Almighty's existence, we need to do something. Looking at the ongoing events such as  accidents, wars, natural calamities it is obvious that the Almighty is vexed at us. You may be of  any religion ,but I believe in a single Almighty power. He is the supreme power who rules the planet. Different people call him by different names but go and honor him.

These days people have no time for their loved one's. They have time for all kind of entertainments and time to have fun but wouldn't it be great if they  take 10 minutes to talk to their loved one's. God's love is wonderful and powerful. He is the miracle maker. Be good from now on. I realized my mistakes and I pledge that today onwards I will reinstate my faith in good and love for him. For I had been blind  for most of the days in my life and today my eyes have opened. Father,forgive me for all my sins. I love you!
Remember him everyday and witness the miracles he  has planned for you!

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A Quality Analyst by day and a dynamic blogger by night, Ste is an out-of-the-Box thinker whose thinking cap is never on the resting mode. The real feather on his thinking cap is his creativity which you can see in all his works, be it short stories, poems or sketches. He is a very big fan of Gabriel Garcia Marquez. Most of his short stories are inspired from real life and things that fascinates him. His blog "The Solitary Writer" is a central repository of his entire creative spear." . Did you like this post? Get The Solitary Writers updates via Facebook or Twitter, better yet, subscribe to it via RSS Feed. It’s easy, and free!Also you can discuss in the Forum. Comments are just another way to let me know how you feel.Don't forget to comment.

Saturday, November 03, 2012

Celebrate God !!

This post has been published by me as a part of the Blog-a-Ton 33; the thirty-third edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. To be part of the next edition, visit and start following Blog-a-Ton. The theme for the month is 'Celebrations'
 Celebrate God with your hands,
Celebrate God with your voice,
Celebrate God in all that you do,
And he will be with you.

Listen to Him with your eyes:
Listen to Him with your heart.
Listen to Him as He speaks with you.
And He will be with you.

I still remember those  young days where we used to sing this hymn during the Sunday masses and our Sunday classes . Those were the tender age where we never knew the meaning of this song. But as we grew up,we tend to learn many new things. Recently I came across this hymn although due to paucity of time I miss my Sunday masses. God forgive me. But  I was lost into these stanzas when I read those lines with full concentration. I contemplated for few more minutes  and realized what life would be with and without God. Almighty never  betrays us. He is present everywhere. We just need to open our eyes and look for him. Celebrate him  with praise and rejoice with him. Difficulties in life are not new. They may ruin your life and spoil your happiness. But do we really need to give up. Almighty is our father. Mark my words when I speak these words which has some meaning. I generally refrain from preaching words of wisdom. These lines instigated me to write something for my blog as my blog was craving for attention. Call  and Remember him during your worst time. He is one step away from you. Remember him in your prayers and the very next moment he will resolve your issues in life. Agnostics and Atheists don't believe in the existence of God. But those who  believe in Almighty should praise his name. There is nothing without him. He is the supreme power that binds this whole world into one.You might go through the worst phase of your life and  might await the situation to worsen. Cribbing and Whining will not  vanish your problems. It may give you a transient resolution for some period of time but for a long time relief there has to be something. Celebrate God in all that you do. There might be cases where you may have everything in life. But you don't have time to celebrate the success,happiness with Almighty. Little do you know that he is the stake holder in your happiness and success as he governs you. Friends, never forget to celebrate such small happy moments with your lord. This Almighty term which I use is independent of religion while talking in this context as I want to generalize all the superior powers irrespective of the religions.

He will always be with you when you do things which he likes. He will never forsake you for sure as you are his creation. He is present everywhere  in many forms. Its just that we need to open our eyes and look forward to meet him.During  our sufferings and transgressions we call him and remember him but we never and we can't remember him during our happy times. That isn't fair at all. Everything is possible with him. He is the mentor,guide,instructor and the supreme power.Is it good to remember Jesus Christ only during Easters and Christmas?why do you have to remember Almighty Allah only during Ramzan Eid?. Did Ram said  to you to remember him only during Ram Navami. We celebrate many festivals in our country viz  Diwali ,Holi etc. But why do we have to remember our Gods only during such days. Its on our hand because we  have set certain rules ,rules which doesn't seems good to me. Remembering God on such special days  is not a rule in any rule book but do make time for him during your times of need. Pray with your whole heart.Celebrate your success with him . Let him rejoice with your every achievement. Share your sorrows with him. He is the best counselor who counsels the entire planet.He is the governor who governs your life. He never betrays you so why do you want to betray him . These are random thoughts and certain people may not appreciate this. But I want to tell you that you can together climb the success ladder and reach the zenith when you celebrate God.

Speak to him. Vent out everything to him. He is always there to listen you and he won't get irked or he won't run after listening your problems as he is the divine master of this universe. He rocks the world. Its Celebration time . This Diwali may Almighty bless you with all the riches and provide you with all the happiness in your life. Burst crackers and play safe. So its time to Celebrate m celebrate God with all that you do and he will be with you. :-)

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Friday, May 07, 2010

209.Does God really exists?

"Great things happen when God mixes with Man;Great and beautiful and wonderful things"

..reads one of the rhyme which we used to sing during our school days. How often do we realize the importance of God in our life? There are certain cases when we fail to realize the existence of god in this universe. Does God really exists in this world or this is a mere hypothesis?. Well if this is a hypothesis, then whom could we blame?. It is the entity or a factor that governs the entire universe according to some people. Some Hindu Brahmans or pundits to be precise feel the existence of God as a prime factor.If God really exists then where does he disappears during time of sorrows and frustration. If I could say ,then as per my opinion God does exists for those who believe him and for atheists and agnostics he doesn't; simple isn't it? I really fail to understand the importance of God in my life. Trust me,last few weeks have certainly been one of my worst days of my life. Many turbulence occurred in this session or phase of my life. These incidences have drifted my views about the existence of god.My opinions are totally different.I beg to differ from points of ideologists, scientists or pundits about the same theory.
God is like a mirage, he exists or not doesn't really matters for those who don't believe him. I had immense faith in god till I was in my hometown, but as difficulties in life increased manifold and when I started facing serious havocs in my life I almost lost hope. Tell me what is the logic in trusting or having faith in God if he himself isn't there to support us during our bad times. Great things does happen ,but for this great thing to happen God should be great enough to shower his blessing upon you. I remember an argument,a tiff between certain group of people. Atheists on one side and believers of God on other side. It was a debate about the existence of God.I was a mere spectator as I didn't had any thing to do with. For I understand my plight and helpless about the same.
If one person who could solve the problems in your life ,then it would be God as per many people's view. Quite true;ain't it?.
SO my question is why does God betrays us during our bad time?.Where is he when we cry and present our plea to freed him from our sins. Oh! the Gods of the world would 've been busy solving people and may be we may be placed on a long queue. When our time comes, our life collapses and we are helpless.Think about those who lost their loved ones because of certain unwanted things but yet believe in God. Isn't it like fooling your child?.God is almighty,universal. Another question I want to raise is why God curses people who are harmless,innocent and who hadn't even thought bad of others. Is he testing out patience or is he testing our faith on him. Well that is life. The other day some one asked me to learn the concept of life. I was pissed off and irritated to listen to his lectures. Why would I learn the concept of life. If Corporate people don't understand feelings,emotions,sentiments etc ..then it doesn't means that you've to learn the concept of life.I am extremely sorry for drifting away from the topic of discussion.I want to ask you few other things. I've been frustrated these days for some personal and official reasons. This post may well exhibit my frustration level. Trust me I am brave enough to face things in life. For I very well know the so called concept of life. If leaving your loved ones and earning bread and butter by staying at a distant place is the only solution then why to do such things.You know the importance of certain people in your life and leaving them at some point of time is one of the biggest loss . Human life is short and in this short span we are here to imbue happiness and spread smiles. Tell me what is the purpose of living if you exhibit fake happiness and suppress your sorrow within you. I am not here to vent out my frustrations.I am just talking facts. Believe me you will remember each words when you face problems in life.
"Expectation always hurt ,so please stop expecting and start doing"
Love you all,Love from Noida,God bless you,
The Solitary Writer.